fire burnts bright with
every cast glance
feeling so high despite
lack of substance

dirty windows on open doorways
live like no one knows
this is how it stays

treetops glisten with
fresh and free rain
all the angles run
against your grain

simple promise kept for only one
live like fireworks
rollin past the sun

but you dont know it babe
or you dont show may
be you do

every time i can see
your my reality
that wont come true

why cant you be the one
to open up the sun
rise with me

so i can feel it too
couldnt deny it foolish
to be

cause we could so happy

show me the door that
opens your mind
reach within yourself
and you will find

secrets kept for
too long break you
feed into your fears
they can take you

down that dark road
where you will meet me
i will take you love just
come and seek me

passion feed you each
and every day
it will take you high
just follow my way

funny how things change and then don't.

i'm still here writing this blog...i still must about my life but yet haven't made any monumentous effort to change it...i still push away frustration to save for another day, and continue to expect things to just wash away after time as if stress has it's own life to attend to and will eventually just move along, like an unwanted guest who has suddenly gotten the hint.

i'm still unhappy and i know writing this won't change it, but i'll tell you, having this to refer to is quite telling at times, as it make sme realize aspects of issues i face later on, when my head is cleared, in a way i couldn't have before.

it also makes me think my writing sucks and that i'm horrible at editing my own work. lol.

so i met someone in an unusual way recently.

it was over the phone at work, but we had such a repore that i couldn't help myself and i did something totally out of character(and against company policy, which believe it or not i am big on)-i looked him up on the internet and actually found him.

he only told me his name and that he worked for a separate school.

it didn't take much. lol, i googled him, so sad.

i am so harry met sally when it comes to this shit...and i'm not saying i think i've just found the love of my life(if anyone readings this does catch me saying that then please by all means google me and get me some help), however it is just so refreshing to instantly connect with someone in such a light hearted way that i had to make contact again, even if he didn't want to return the favour.

oh but he did, and can you belive that bugger remembered everything i told him? as he had to highlight-listening is a rare quality to be found in a man.

i have no idea whether this will end up in friendship or anything else, but it was so cool a meeting of the minds that i just couldn't pass up the opportunity to get to know him better.

as they say, lord works in mysterious ways, so when i become instantly enamoured with someone's sense of humour and intelligence on one meeting over the phone...i have no choice but to honour it.

i am in deed in some ways a hopeless romantic and a huge whiner lol.

on the one hand i find huge value today in these types of chance occurances, when inthis day and age things are so trite and base that we forget just how he ever related to eachother before cell phones internet...so i do know the value of a dollar, and a hand written letter, but most refuse to admit that they know too. it would take too much time...too much time doing what?