funny how things change and then don't.

i'm still here writing this blog...i still must about my life but yet haven't made any monumentous effort to change it...i still push away frustration to save for another day, and continue to expect things to just wash away after time as if stress has it's own life to attend to and will eventually just move along, like an unwanted guest who has suddenly gotten the hint.

i'm still unhappy and i know writing this won't change it, but i'll tell you, having this to refer to is quite telling at times, as it make sme realize aspects of issues i face later on, when my head is cleared, in a way i couldn't have before.

it also makes me think my writing sucks and that i'm horrible at editing my own work. lol.

so i met someone in an unusual way recently.

it was over the phone at work, but we had such a repore that i couldn't help myself and i did something totally out of character(and against company policy, which believe it or not i am big on)-i looked him up on the internet and actually found him.

he only told me his name and that he worked for a separate school.

it didn't take much. lol, i googled him, so sad.

i am so harry met sally when it comes to this shit...and i'm not saying i think i've just found the love of my life(if anyone readings this does catch me saying that then please by all means google me and get me some help), however it is just so refreshing to instantly connect with someone in such a light hearted way that i had to make contact again, even if he didn't want to return the favour.

oh but he did, and can you belive that bugger remembered everything i told him? as he had to highlight-listening is a rare quality to be found in a man.

i have no idea whether this will end up in friendship or anything else, but it was so cool a meeting of the minds that i just couldn't pass up the opportunity to get to know him better.

as they say, lord works in mysterious ways, so when i become instantly enamoured with someone's sense of humour and intelligence on one meeting over the phone...i have no choice but to honour it.

i am in deed in some ways a hopeless romantic and a huge whiner lol.

on the one hand i find huge value today in these types of chance occurances, when inthis day and age things are so trite and base that we forget just how he ever related to eachother before cell phones internet...so i do know the value of a dollar, and a hand written letter, but most refuse to admit that they know too. it would take too much time...too much time doing what?