thinkin of makin a move

Yup. Bye London.
I've already left really, and wasn't here to stay anyways.
Still I had an ideal of what could've been, but it wasn't. I don't know what it was that I was expecting, to be honest. I came here with nothing, and still don't have much, though I've sustained a greater quality of life since moving here. My aunts will be pissed, they'll think I'm doing the wrong thing, that's it's not fair to MJ, but really, how fair is it to stay here when I know that it's not our future? So many things wanted but none of them will be attained if we stay here. MJ wants to get into acting, he won't get anywhere out here. I hate changing things for him so much, but there's a higher purpose to it all. I won't be hasty and just jump into something that's not solid. It can only be certain if I've got a solid job opportunity plus a decent neighborhood to live in, of which there are several still in Tdot. I'm lookin at Markham and we'll see if it's meant to be...

"and now for something completely different..."

So this internet situation had me thinkin today. Seems that after all, it's not so different than normal dating(which is really abnormal in fact), only that you get a better chance to preview what someone might have instore for you. However that doesn't cover the creeps and the freeks. But for them-it's like they have a neon sign above their name saying "don't chat with me". LOL, truly you can feel it. There's one man in particular that I've chatted with and he was certainly well spoken and polite, but he gave me the willies. And that was only from MSN!? You gotta know to stay away from that one. Plus he was a lawyer. Enough said.
But it's the ones I end up diggin that get me caught up in what to do. We all know it has to go somewhere at some point, but how do you judge when or where that should be? I mean, we all know the dangers of meeting up with a stranger from online, but what happens when you don't consider them stranger anymore?
Maybe it seems silly or unrealistic, but there is something somewhat romantic about taking your chance just to see if it's possible to run into something that you haven't seen a million times before.
I say this because there is one like that. I have a few men I talk to on a regular basis who's conversation I enjoy and I would even love to hang out with. But(big but lol), there is one that has me going-now how can he be that cool. See it's harder when you've heard the sound of their voice on the phone, for 2hrs straight and without a yawn of boredom. It wasn't just because it was new, it was because he was that cool.
I've thought about it so much from time to time that I'm making myself sick just writing this, so I'm gonna stop.
I figure, if it's meant to be, it'll be.
Kinda like Markham, or Scarborough, or wherever it is that I truly belong.